Wednesday, July 25, 2007

the positive side of life.

I want to thank you lord for the beauty that surrounds me,from a clinging vine to the time i spend with you. thank you for the blades of grass that came from endless storms, and thank you for the blooming bud that came from wind swept storms.thank you for the friends that comes from trying times, and thank you for the love from you that comes from leaving all else to become yours alone.I thank you lover most sweet, for the faith that comes from the streching and twisting of my pride and fears.
I thank you most for the times you have taken all else so that i could see only you.thank you for the boundless joy that comes from giving first,and thank you for the feeling of comfort that comes when i have nothing to fall back on of my own.thank you for the riches that come when i have naught else but to trust in your supply, and thank you for the miracles you do for me even when i am ungratful or lacking in faith.
thank you for my wife and son whom i appreciate more when i give them to you.thank you for someone to spend my life with knowing she is yours and first belongs to you.thank you for my sons smile whitch lights up even the darkess day, and gives me hope that the future will be ok.
let me love always dwell on the good things,though hard as it may seem, and praise you lord for everything even if it be through my tears.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

The breakings that make us stronger.

thank you all for your prayers and notes marieanne is doing alot better. when we prayed to day the lord gave me this for us.(Jesus speaking)This is the day of miracles. This is the day where as you reach out in faith you will receive. I love you my son, and although many times I have had to break you and remake you, it is because of how much I love you. Count it joy my love when you fall and feel as if you are broken; because then I can remake you in my fashion. You are truly David, a man after my heart, but a man of faults and failings that I have broken again and again. Through each trial, failure and breaking I bring you closer to me. I know you try and cover up your brokenness with folly or a front for others because you are afraid to show your side that I have made. The side of a broken heart truly in love with me and passionate for me. You are afraid others will not understand or that it seems out of the ordinary for a man like you to be this way. You have made it this far because of your love for me, because of your desire to be mine and be my bride. I want you to get rid of your fronts now, don’t fear the opinons, scoffs, or words of others; but let go and truly be free in me. I am breaking you and MarieAnne right now, I am remaking you once more and calling you to put aside all else but your love and passion for me.

You know how you sit at night and all you feel is trials of the day or the fear of what will happen to marieane or even to your life for me? These feelings are from me because I am trying to make you fully lean on me. Right now you do lean on me but every now and again you run off in your own arm and this is where I am working, I want you fully mine, fully given over to me and fully and completely broken and remade in my form.
The greatest gift I have given you is a broken heart, and a love and understanding for others, a listening ear. But these are the gifts you hide away because you are afraid of the opinions of others and you don’t want to seem as if you are nothing, but this is your greatest gift from me, let your true self come forth, and embrace the gift I have given you. Enjoy the breakings and revel in our love .destroy the fronts and be the man I have made you. Thank me through your breakings, thank me through your tears don’t be ashamed of them; and fear not to let others see and know of your need and dependence on me.


Your passion and desire for me, this gift I give you of a broken heart and a soul tried in the fire and remade, are your strengths and the part of you that I want you to emphasize for from these you will gain the victory, and from these you will have become the gold pulled from the fire. I must burn out the impurities that you may become priceless. Fear not the breaking but rejoice, for the sweet smell of your tears, are to me as ecstasy for I know that as you allow these breakings it brings us closer together. The miracle is done! The healing is there for you and Marianne, one in the flesh and one in the spirit now reach out and receive them in faith and rejoice in your breakings and thank me for the sweet perfume of souls given to me fully by my most beautiful brides. I love you. thank you all for your prayers they are the greatest gift you can give. love mike

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Greater faith.

This last week my dear wife Marieanne took a turn for the worse with her health,we spent a day in the hospital to stabilize her.I broke down that night, i had been on the road for a few days and it was a shock to me when i got home.
It put many things in perspective for me,the petty squables or irritations of others,financial battles etc all seemed to pale in comparison with the fear of loosing her.
over the last 3 years we have fough this battle with her health but only twice have i felt i was really going to lose her and this was one of them.when we got home that night i broke down crying i have come so close so many times to giving up and each time the lord gave me strength to keep going. marieanne is the greatest sample to me of one who will never give up the fight,she has fought a good fight truly.
i stopped to hear from the lord and this is what he gave me.(jesus speaking)My son, greater faith is the ability to see beyond your own limitations. when you try to work in the arm of the flesh or figure things out or deal with them on your own you are in a box of limitations and boundries.Only when you let go and let me work in you with any of you getting in the way; then I can give you greater faith, then I can expand your horizons and then I can do a miracle. You can not have greater faith in the flesh no matter how much you want it, no matter even how much you deserve it. My gift of greater faith for you is contingent on you being empty of yourself, broken and willing to be remade as a vessel of my use. The desperation you lack is a result of an acceptance of the boundaries, the limitations thinking that (well that’s all that can be done) ask yourself “do I really believe I can raise the dead”? Well of course you can’t, but me in you with the gift of greater faith can that’s what you must have to pull down my miracles for you. Right now ask me to break you and remake you in my boundaries, to give you the greater faith, and to make you into the vessel I see you to be. I love you my beautiful and most intimate bride. I want to thank all of you for your prayers and encouragement, they mean more to me and marieanne than you will ever know. love mike