Wednesday, December 06, 2006

End of the world.

We hello and good day, merry christmas and new years salutations. I wish you all the best for all the year and the happiness that life can bring.

Monday, December 04, 2006

posted for you.

I am sorry for the long abstinance, the reason for this long hiatis has been the tumult as to what to write on. my life it seems takes the course more twisting and surprise filled than the brazillian pantanal.I being a cancer am a creature of sentiment, emotion perhaps even the fragile. and those of you who know me will eather agree heartily or scoff out of jest. Is it a crime to love too fiercely and not to well? should we care for all those who we share our lives with , with intimacy or common friendship? is it wrong to love and hope for that in return?Is it a mistake to crave the touch and caress of affection and love? or is the chastity of prudent separation for fear of hurt or emotional attactment, or dare I say deep friendship that borders love for another more accepted?each day that has passed me this last month makes me more aware of the treasure that each person we live and work with are , Each touches us in a way and make us better, and then vanish to follow thier call wherever it leads.maybe I am the too sentimental type , but I belive love in anyform is a good thing and should be embraced rather than rejected, hidden from , or made into a thing to be afraid of. our lives are lived in the obedience of the love of our husband and savior, and the love he gives is the strongest force in the world , I would rather love feircely and with my whole heart and suffer the hurt than allow myself to become isolated for fear of it.too often we are afraid to love or to let go in body mind or otherwise for fear, for the conciousness of man.I was one of these afraid to let go afraid to be loved or love because I was afraid of the hurt, the humbling and the feelings of pain and joy.over the last year I have had these all , the highs,the extream lows, the hurts, the loneliness, the desire for love and the fear of it. the pain of loving someone who cannot return it and the disapointment of loving someone who does not share those feelings: the hardest part was the honesty;the being open about those feelings ,desires, needs knowing they will be crushed, expecting the worst yet praying for the best of all things.and the best was experiencing the joy and love when someone shares the lords love and thier heart with you.I have seen the miracles of healing. I have felt the pain of battle. I have been overcome with the feeling of being alone. I have climbed the mountain of faith and seemany more. I have felt the love that only god can give through another . I have rejoiced in the triumphs of my loved ones and prayed in the times of distress . I have walked through the shadow of death to lie down in green pastures.I have cried tears of joy and happiness, and I have come the end of my rope and been lifted up.and through it all I three constants, the lord,my wife,my family,and a friend that I love dearly. I thank you all for this year, you have helped me to make it and come through a better man.