click,click,pull.

One of the greatest things i love about the family and our homes, is the sense(most of the time.)that you are a family,equal and just as important and interesting across the board.Too often though in gatherings,fellowships or seminars the lines seem clearly dawn aroung certain clicks or "stratas"if you will,at one more recent one i went to i was amaized to find a caste system in place.
whith many of the more family elite"or those who have a better look, aloof from those of the more menial class.HAve we come to the point where we have social circles in the family?I for one hope not. each person i meet new, or reaquanted in the family not only is extreamly talented and amazing but beautiful and charming in there own way.I have to say that many things i thought about people or ideas of thier personalities where far from right and each time I see them I am amazed at a new side of them.
I wonder how if we each took time to reach out to someone outside of our social circle, how amazed we would be to find a friend,companion,or lover.asit is you could stand in the middle of a family gathering and the clicks are prevalent around you,even to the real hurt or exclusion of others.if we are the family of love,the reincarnation of the cathars should we not try and act like it?
If each day we made a effort to really endevor to befriend or get to know better someone outside our own"circle"or socially appropriate group or age range, we would make the familly of love alive more.I fall short in this i know not out of meaness or spite, but more from being too lazy to really think of others instead of my own comfort zone or what i want.please i askthat each time you decide to hang out with friends,throw a party or even just chill out or do something fun;think of the person who may be feeling left out and pull them in.
make that effort to draw a wider circle and include those who maybe you would not normally,help then feel loved and part of that "in crowd" whitch should include all of your brothers and sisters.
If jesus did not discriminate why should we? I for one want to follow in his footsteps of treating and loving all of us the same.try it today tomarrow is too late.

my thanks for love.

Today lord as i sat down to think of the love you gave,one most pure and untouched like frost on wintery day.I thank you for the touch of one so kind and fair.
like gentle midnight breeze upon a maiden fair;her kiss like gentle word sublime, still sweet and holding tightly as a vine.
i treasure still more this effect because you gave it so,in time of need when in truth my heart was sinking low.Though thruly everlasting is your love, i longed for sweet embrace,of one in mortal form of your beauty and your love upon her face.
In truth dear lord I wavered in the faith,that you who loved me more than any other would so swiftly answer my heartache.
so now i sit in thanful joy at the love you have made,and shared with me another who's beauty needs no aid.her smille is a rainbow and promise to this man that forever and eternity, you wish us all be glad.
I thank you for this treasure of a love so kind and fair, she was first and alway your bride who's love you choose to share.
so take here now my thankfulness and joy that in your love i share;and let me shout and praise you that all may know your care.for from this love i see,how you truly care for me. DMG

The Grace to fight on.

I know many of you out there have gone through those times where you feel that one more thing will be your last , that it is too much. I have felt this for this last month, the lord is breaking and remaking me once more, most nights i struggle to hold back from the tears that seem to be ready to spill over.I wish that i had someone to tell, on the outside many times i seem together , but inside i am screaming for my lord to pull me through.have you ever felt that you had no one to talk to eather because they would not understand or are too superficial to care and are mostly wrapped up in thier own dificulties?
I know the lord has pulled out all the stops with me,taken away all the safety nets so there is nothing left. he wants to be the only thing in my life.my dear and lovely wife is leaving to live in canada for some time mostly for health reasons. she truely has fought a good fight and has been a encouragement to me , even in her illness.
many nights i truly feel alone and at a loss, and it hurts that most others around me cannot see it or don't care. but then the other day when i was working on some of my HSTP, i could not take it anymore and asked my love why. and what he said made all clear away. he said" my love it is not the trial whitch is to be feared or dreaded but rather the lack of one, i test you so that i may use you.when it seems too much it is so you will learn to lean all on me. when it seems you have no one that cares it is so you may learn the importance and vitality of me and my love. when it seem as if you will fall and break into many peices, then you learn the value of letting me remake you.let my love be your catylist and my bed be your only desire.
i take away everything from you so that i may have you fully and teach you the extasy of me." So now even though the pain still lingers, and the tears are still there, i see my lover at the end saying" hang on just a little longer my good and faithful servant;so I may enter you into the joy that passes all understanding, and the peace, love and comfort that comes only to those who are willing to let me break them and give up all so that they can be closer to me and do anything for me."
so hang on, If i can I know the lord can get you through too and give you the victory.